I have so much
gratitude lately . I am totally full of thankfulness . Each day there are so
many things that I am thankful for and I feel blessed to be in that situation
That being said
-nothing ever makes me more thankful than missing a close call on health . To
actually be given good news by a doctor instead of the anticipated bad news .
Today was that day
for me
For the last month
Bear has been having almost constant
quite sever stomach
aches after eating . We have all been trying to find a pattern , rhyme or
reason to this but have not been successful .
He also lost 5 lbs in
3 weeks - not a great sign for doctors in combination with symptoms and family
history of disease
Finally we called
doctor and took him in on Tuesday . Due to a family history of Chrones disease
in family the doctor wanted him tested and celiac disease too . For some reason
I freaked out over these possibilities - especially Chrones . We have had such
bad medical news over last three years almost ever time we see a doctor that to
me if she wanted him tested - that meant he would be diagnosed . So often in
last three years has been hard and bad medical news for our family and my mom .
I am just used to bad news
So I fretted and
worried and read 70 articles on these conditions . Sleepless nights last night
and felt sick to my stomach myself knowing that the shining star
and such a
wonderful guy of our family could have these diseases . I know can seem
dramatic ( but maybe not to many of you !) Seems like we all have our things in life that
we worry lots about . We all worry about different things that can obsess us (
health , work , kids behavior , divorce , environment etc )
Health
of my family is
mine .
And then this
morning at 11am as I was just about to turn off my phone for 1.5 hrs
in restorative yoga class to try and relax myself and
keep sane - the phone rings
And it has caller id
of doctor
And she says that he
does not have Chrones disease !!!! Yay !!!
All the rest of tests
come in next week only ( celiac etc ) but I am just so happy we have ruled out
the family history one .
I have never had such
a peaceful and wonderful yoga class in my life
And how quickly our
minds forget about our worries and go back to the " normal " stuff
like grocery lists and work .
That yoga class felt
like a gift
A medical break made
me feel so filled with gratitude as we have felt over the last few years that
we haven't had much of a break
Today was ours :)
And then my mind
wandered to all the poor people who didn't have great news about their kids
today
Next week we get rest
of the results but for some reason I am not half as worried as I was about
today
So we still have the
pain and issues to deal with but we know he will be ok probably and will in my
mind anyways be food allergies or intolerance or IBS vs serious lifelong
disease category
And it meant
everything to me today to just have a little break
Namaste
