I
have had some favorite movies on my life
Glass
castle is by far my favourite and saw this last night
Written
by Jeanette Walls I had also read the book which was ok but the movie was even
better which is a rare experience
It touched
a cord in me that has not been touched for a long long time .
Very
dissimilar to my own life for certain , but many shared emotions .
Trying
to run so far from my dad and his mental illness that seemed to swallow me like
a large whale and encompass me
His
illness overriding all the amazing and happy times we did have together
WhAt
touched me so much in this movie was that the grown up daughter did finally
come to an acceptance of her dad and the peace that ensued . Her family pushing
her outside of what she thought capable . She found peace when she accepted her
dad and his limitations. The acceptance of it led her to great joy and freedom
Both
the younger and older daughter actresses were brilliant .
I
was also reminded of the strong bond between my own daughter and her dad . Last
year when he held her hands and looked deep into her eyes and asked that she
trust him which she did and which he has so dilegently protected her trust
every moment of every day since . I see what she will have with her dad that I
did not and makes me so profoundly happy for her .
It
made me so desperately happy for both of them and also so desperately scared .
Loving so hard is risky business sometimes isn’t it ?
I
saw myself in that daughter in the movie so clearly in so many ways . She was
the daughter in me , the mother , the wife , the friend . The girl inside my
woman .
She
had to leave her life to come back to herself . Thankfully I did not . At the
end when she wore her hair down at the table with her siblings and laughed and
laughed I saw Freedom , acceptance and peace . I saw where I am now . I also
felt sad for my path and my dads path that was unable to be completed in life
but has been so much more in death .
Him
laughing and her looking up , him protecting her and telling her how beautiful
she was to him and how special . Him getting to her on a way that no other man
ever would . The beautiful bond between father and daughter , one that I had
very small glimpses of for a very short while in very small doses but there
nonetheless . I know this now as I can remember the glimpses . I have allowed
myself
25
memories on a Paper feels good enough . Sharing it . Writing about my
experiences . Remembering who I am . Putting pen to paper . Remembering love .
Love that was there . Fighting for it for myself . Reminding those around me I
need to remember as much as I may show I want to forget
Don’t
let great be the enemy of good is what I often say .
I
loved this movie with my heart and soul and will ask everyone who loves me to
watch it . Even if it was completely different than my life and circumstances
so many of the feelings in it were mine
It
broke my heart and saved it all at once
Watch
the Glass Castle . It is a masterpiece not to be missed
