Girl stuff

Having a daughter was always a dream of mine 

And one that i was lucky enough to  have come true 

To be honest though besides her always having had beautiful clothes to dress her up in as a little girl .. and now her buying clothes and  purses that i adore - and people often commenting that she looks like me in this or that way - it has not been that different than having boys in many wAys. My friend and i were discussing this together just a month ago in the sense that having a daughter can be overated as in so many ways it is so unique and very similar to having a son in fact

Until now i have felt that although a different experience not too too different . Then my daughter turned 15 - and fell in love and shares that with me . 15 is a whole new age for a mother and daughter. Its the age when a girl often has her first love , and goes from a young teen to more of a real teen, where her identity as a female really begins to shift and grow and where she gets closer or further from her mom . Needs her more or less. When a girl loves a boy she needs her mama

Beauty is getting closer to me and letting me in more - and to be honest i could cry of happiness . As she is growing up so is that relationship blossoming. I can see that she wants so much more of me than she ever has in the past and i am very eager to give it to her

Last weekend she spent an hour telling her brother and her dad and i about how she feels about a boy . It was truly the sweetest thing ever.

This week she has been off school and has had friend after friend over home and at cottage and it has been so fun . It feels like it did a few years ago when her friends were so much a part of our lives and our hearts. That is how it has been this week getting to know even better some newer friends . She has always really lucked out in the friend dept and truly each on is a precious gem 

I adore having teen girls around to go in jacuzzi with and watch then dance and hear about thier friend issues and boyfriends. It simply : really really fun 

Tonight i realized there is a whole new territory to explore with my daughter and one i am still unfamiliar with but one i have always wanted to be invited too . This last week i feel i an becoming part of a world that i never really knew existed . 

I feel so happy right now 

And i am loving having a girl 

And very excited for all that is to come in the future 

Just like with the boys - although this teen stage is challenging and hard to navigate - i think it is also the stage i am best at as a parent too . I feel in my element most days of the week . And i remember those days of lying on my moms bed ans talking about anything and everything with my mom daily before bed as the most precious moments of my life .

I still do . ( i still lie in bed with my mama bear all the time:)

I am starting to feel that opening with my own daughter and it is amazing . This week was truly precious.

Thank you universe for never letting my heart give up on my precious beautiful girl - or her on me