I am not a body person. I have always been more in my
head than my body. When people around me talk about stomach aches from nerves,
or butterflies, or pounding in their hearts it is hard for me to relate.
I know this sounds crazy but I barely even notice that
much when I am sick, or recovering from surgery, or throwing up, or even having
a baby of 10.5lbs without an epidural until minutes before he was born, was
doable for me. I feel lots of pain but I
can block it out from my head. My body and head are not in sync all the time.
Even for eating my body will crave a healthy peach and my
mind will say “no its vacation so eat a square
of chocolate and live it up”. It is ridiculous,
Lately however my body is talking to me. It is asking for
protein and fiber, calling out for 30 minutes of exercise daily. All of these
things I often do but they are my head telling me to make the decision and not
my body guiding me. So the decisions made are harder to act upon be they are
intellectaul vs emotional or physical.
Lately my body wants to hug more, and feel more, and get stronger
and do more.
My mind? Well it still run 24 hrs. A day.but I do sleep
well and more often.
So this morning after 3 weeks of vacation I was returning
to work. A day that was CRAZY busy with literally hundreds of emails and wok
ahead. Three weeks off is a long time in my role especially without checking
in. I started only checking in two days before and I was SCARED.Scared. And not
just in my mind..But in my body (don’t get me wrong I adore my work but it is
hard what I do)
So this morning I had butterflies and dizziness and almost
tears in the shower. I felt stress and anxiety in my heart and lightheaded. I was
so distraught about my state but also so happy! This has never happened much to
me for work (more so at hospitals with kids in surgery etc.)
I am human after all!!!!
And I ate a protein bar for the first time in my life
this morning because my body asked for
it. OMG! And I took an Advil at work when my head hurt .And I made an apt
to have a nutritionist coach me
I also last night made two hard decisions (or no decisions)
with my body.
My 12.5 year old daughter wanted to go alone to Laronde today
without groups of friends and no parent. My body said sleep on it. I did and
woke up and delegated the decision to my husband. My son Chases was out last night and not texting where he
was and I wanted to go to sleep. So I told my son Bear to stay up for him and went
to sleep.
(my body seems to also enjoy delegating)
Powerful!
My life is getting ready for Phase 2: Teens. It is like preparing for
childbirth-you have no idea until you are there…and with a 16.5 yr. old this is no dress rehearsal anymore. I am
there. My body is preparing for combat I think. I thought I knew at 12 yrs..and
then again at 14 yrs..but I did not. this is the real thing people.
Anyways today at work I took it email by email. Problem by
problem. Request by request. I stopped being such a little body sissy for the
day and got my usual minty act together
of course.
Now by the end of the day? I am in sync again with my mind.
And welcoming my new guest, of my body. I am looking forward to getting to know
you body!
