Something Nice Happened TodayJ)))

“Your daughter is doing well. Her curve has not gotten worse. The brace is working. So far -so good. We will see you next in 6 months and see then”

Breathe. Breath. Digest. Focus. Absorb. Process.

Someone is staying something good and nice and positive to you girl!!!

not possible.

Soak it in.

Every single bit.

Ahhhhhhh.

Since about Nov 30…its sounds horrible but nothing nice has been said. Except all the positives I manage to make out of all the negatives. Because I am good at making hard things beautiful. But nothing has been easy..Or said easily…or received easily. Literally one crisis after another (and the worst is I am not even exaggerating)

So today. Was amazing!!!!!!!

Sure my standards have lowered a bit maybe. Still two more years of bracing 20 hrs. a day. Other x-rays every 6 months where curve still has risk to worsen and need surgery.

But for Today and next 6 months….I can breathe. And live ..and feel good..and smile. I get to be the mom of “a somewhat healthier girl with lifetime scoliosis not having the immediate strong possibility of spinal fusion surgery that would limit her life forever”.

So today I of course arrived adorned in lucky charms, and body washes. with worry dolls. Prayers were said to God, Heavenly Father, and Moms already in heaven…….

And they all worked.

Because you know what?

My girl Meh-Meh..will be just fine.

And today for the first time in 6 months…my heart and head both believed this at the very same time.
Health is everything..and when you feel that is really threatned-the world closes in on everything.Meh- meh will start highschool in dance and feel joy and calm. She got a  very well deserved gift today.It's time for this family to get a break.

And me?  I felt..like I came back to myself just a little. And it felt damn good to be back home..to me.