Ok so I am done with the goalless summer after 2.5 weeks of no goals, no plans and no routines for the kids.
It has been a blast truly (up until the last 2 days where I have nearly lost my mind). Besides that…amazing.
Now it is time for me to have 12 days off…my own goalless heaven. Well partially anyways since I will be at work for a good part of those days. Goalless evenings and nights though..I will take what I can get.
Off to camp they go those three kids. Ahhh…………..
So we will work next week while they are at camp and then have 5 days at Trent without any kids at all. My mouth is watering already. Paradoxically , I also miss them already. I will try loving them from afar:)
And then we will get the kids back for a two week break of vacation at the cottage. And I will be ready to welcome them back with open arms, ready to embrace the fun, the craziness, the chaos, and the non-structure again.
All of my friends and colleagues seem to be at home with their kids in summer, on vacation or have their kids in camps as soon as school ends. In soccer at night and up early for hockey.
I choose a goalless summer.
Yay! (maybe?)
I will always have a love/hate relationship when it comes to my kids and structured time vs. non structured time.
I will always wonder if I did good or bad.
Goalless summer will not be part of any parenting book I write (yet). I have to see what this yields ..to be sure first. Part of me is convinced my kids will profit from all of this long term, part of me doubts it too and wonders if more routine would be good for them?
As I hear them now in the family room at Trent, the boys fighting wit eachother for their sister's attention so they "can spend time with her before she is off to her different camp tomorrow". All on the couch, cuddling, laughing and enjoying eachother as they have so much in the last 2 weeks...I am pretty sure I have done good. At least in this moment anyways. Life seems especially sweet today
Motherhood..is always full of questions-that is always the way it seems.
