Right now I am on Bavero Beach in Dominican Republic with
one of my dearest BFF’s: SoulKeeper. We are at an AMAZING hotel and having and
AMAZING time.
I have honestly never felt like I both needed to
deserved a vacation more than this week.
But
the sad thing is we almost did not come here.
Sunday night I am happily packing (ok ok maybe not
happily if you know how I feel about packing!) and I go to sleep..Soulkeeper
and I text promising to see here at my place at 6:45 am where my Protector
would drive us to the airport.
I sleep soundly dreaming of the week ahead. My true salvation.
And
then the phone rings at 5:50am. And I am still, asleep. And
as I answer it and wake up on the phone I realize I severely want to hang up on the nasty human on the other end telling
me unbelievable and horrible things.
It is Soul keeper’s husband (another one of my closest
BFF’s) telling me 45 mins before we are to depart to the airport that my BFF
(his wife) has GASTRO!!!! And has been throwing up all night and is currently
hugging the toilet.
And as much as I want to be reasonable and kind and
considerate and understanding all I can possibly think of to say is “WHAT THE
FUCK ARE YOU SAYING!!!!!” DON’T TELL ME THIS..DONT TELL ME THIS..SHE IS COMING
ON THE TRIP..DONT TELL ME THIS ..SO DONT TELL ME THIS . NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
An then I add “What did you want me to do –she has to be
here is 45 mins to get our plane??? And he says” she thought you might be able
to provide some guidance as so what she should do and what is the best thing”.
And in my head I am screaming: I WILL TELL YOU WHAT TO
DO-PACK A CHANGE OF CLOTHERS IN HER BAG-MAKE SURE SHE HAS SOME EXTRA UNDERWAER
AND A PASSPORT-PROVIDE A BUNCH OF BARF PACKS AND BLOODY DRUG HER WITH GRAVOL
AND SEND HER TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(and ps I think I said all this out loud to him too) Thank god he loves me:)
Then he told me they would make the decision and call me
back in 5 mins.
And then I started crying and screaming and wailing from
the bottom of my heart. My kids were all asleep and my husband was on the
toilet and I begged him to get off and come and absorb this shock with me. And he
did. And I cried and cried and cried and cried and cried.
And then decided that if she was not going them I would
go alone. I would get ready in 35 mins and go to Dominican Republic alone. A
trip I had planned for two years for my mom and BFF and paid for almost all of
it out of my Dad’s inheritance. And now my Mom had cancelled and my BFF was pucking
her brains out. I would be in DR alone and by tomorrow she would feel like a
peach. OMFG!!!!
So he called back and I was silent. I was too scared to
speak. Too scared to hear. He later told me I was crying and Soulkeeper was
crying. Two crying woman at 6:01am. And he told me that she was getting on the
plane and that there was no way she could drive to our house as planned. And no
way could he drive her as she has three young kids stull sleeping. So I pulled
my husband off the toilet (once again) and told him to get out of the house and
go pick up miss barfly. And he did. Without
coffee.
And when she arrived at our place she was A COMPLETE
MESS. No speaking …any energy…no nothing. I was shaking and popped some major anti-anxiety
meds reserved for such occasions and took her to Dominican Republic with me. Where
she belonged. With me. Saving me Laughing with me. Being with me.
And so lots happened between that airport and here
(mainly a lot of sleeping and green face) and now we are here.
And it is paradise here truly……we are having so much fun.
We are both anti iPhone on vacation. And anti clocks.We both sleep in until 10
am for two mornings now….we never run out of things to say and we are on the
exactly same schedule and rhythm. We soak in the shade (vs the sun) we eat all
the same things…I watch her “attempt” to drink…she is kind and then she is the
devil..she makes me laight ..she made me cry (and then she fixed it!!) She
lights up my life like no star in the sky ever could.
And I miss my Mommy so much who could not come. I look at
this place in paradise and know we have to come back together one day. But I
know her decisions were for the best. It’s way too hot here for her if she is
not well. I can barely walk from one end of this MASSIVE hotel to another without
passing out!!!!
Soulkeeper and I have decided that a girls trip like this
is a necessity for womankind. Sure for her leaving three young kids was
heartbreaking but she got over it mighty quickly. as it is a totally worth it sacrifice!!!! She will be a hundred times
the mommy she needs to be when she gets home-batteries recharged-new perspectives,
realized, revitalized. This need to be prescribed to any Mom. Mandatory!!!
The cherry on top is that despite all the bad things that
have happened to me and my family over the last 4 months-this one..that almost
turned out bad….is really, really really, really good. It’s truly exactly what
need this week to recharge my batteries and clear my head. And hey it totally
helps to have a full time social worker, art therapist, private counsellor
taking on my case! For free and with love! Watch out world when I return…I will
be ready to take you all on.
If anyone in this world is reeling really really blue…go
away to a beautiful place with Soulkeeper for a week. She will truly make it
all better (if she is not late or cancel that is!) If she gets there…she is yours
forever. She will get me PEACE back. Yay.
Thank you world for letting one good thing happen to me
lately.
