I just wrote an amazing blog. Probably one of my best. I was
about to post it and all the sudden by some technological nightmare. Pouf! Gone!
Ironically a bit like the life I have always known. The disappearance
of this blog today is no different than what I have been living the last week
and a half.
I have been baptized by fire. Into a whole new world. Whether
I like it or not.
And I can choose to sit here and painfully re-write three
pages of a blog that was magnificent and let all my concerned readers know
where I am at-or I can move onto plan B which will be a few short words about
the state of my current disaster.
I chose plan B.
(I actually chose plan C which barely says anything at all).
What did you do in situations like this?
You live them.
So she will go to Coast Rica next Friday for 10 days on
her dream vacation that doesn’t feel like such a dream anymore, where her heart
is not even mildly into it.
She will have her long awaited book published in London
and all over Amazon and many other forums net week or the next. Instead of
dancing from the rooftops as expected “More life, Please!” will exist on its
own for a couple of weeks.
And then she will return.
With fire in her belly.
It is so.
And she will get her act together.
And she will outdo anything she ever thought possible and
completely explore her potential which she and everyone around her have no doubt
that she possess.
It is so.
And she? She? Will Kick Ass in her career that she will
plan and execute. 5 yrs. earlier than she ever wanted to-which really really
pisses her off.
She will get over her feeling of being lost, and alienation
and sadness and melancholy and standing alone and being separate. She will get
over her trust issues and everything else that a career loss after 11 yrs. does
to a person.
And she will come back. To herself. And take this to the
next level.
Of course she will. She has had more than enough practice
in the areas of resilience and coping-life has ensured that for this girl.
Lucky her? And for anyone who loses a career out there, it is traumatic on so
many levels. But not even comparable to the threatened state of your daughters
health, your mom’s health your marriage and your husband’s health simultaneously.
This lucky girl gets to experience all of them. Every single one. Yay?
I guess 2014 set me up for 2015?
Just you watch me succeed in ways that are unimaginable
You just watch me provide this world with some ridiculous value
You just watch me provide this world with some ridiculous value
This I know for sure.
