For years people around me have been talking about how getting older sucks.
I have not related to it so much because i was young.
I didn't think either that i would never not feel young at heart.
My husband is 12 yrs older than i too so i have always been young.
Well until now.
Somehow this year i feel older even though in many ways i am in the best shape on a fitness scale than i have been since my 20's
I still feel young at heart and i think i still look fairly young too .. But something has changed in me
Could it be that i will turn 45 yrs old in 10 months??? ( ssshhhh for all the young cute men i lied to at work about my age ) somehow that number just does not seem that young?
And often friends and i discuss our dr appts or hormonal cycles . Or our ailments!!!!! Yikes!!!
How the hell did i get any ailments anyways??
Are those not only for old people??
And i just generally care less . Sure its nice to dress nicely and look pretty but seriously does it matter if my winter boots have heels or not? Are boys actually going to notice if i wear a short black dress anymore ? ( sad but true!)
I saw a bunch of girls in their 30's the other day and thought to myself .... Wow they have it all. That used to be me ! All fashionable and cute and caring about their designer diaper bags.
Dont get me wrong i still care alot ( not about diaper bags but bags in general ) but its just not the same . Those 30 yrs old wont be noticing my lole or coach bag anymore .... They will notice eachother's
Me and my friends will be the middle aged moms with nice purses.
Buy maybe not coincidentially i also feel very relaxed and at peace alot of the time too. A feeling very foreign to me. And i quite like it. Just comfy cozy in my own skin .. My marriage ... My frienships .... I feel like a cozy blanket in alot of ways ( a little worn out too)
Content . Happy. Still like my reflection in many ways especially with some lipgloss and high boots and a good bag.
More importantly i like the older me better on the inside .
And i am wiser everyday
And you know what? This is good enough for me :)
