Thursday, July 21, 2016

Bookworm Me



I have always loved books . Really and truly love them .
As a child and teen less as my dad was obsessed with books ( as in a whole floor of our home devoted to his library- ) therefore for me in the younger years made me not want
To show my passion myself given the  turbulant  relationship my dad and i shared 
Being anything like him was not on my list of things to do as a teen .

I also remember him telling me in no uncertain terms that the danielle steele romance books i adored as a teen were trash and not
Up to his standards. Bye - bye love of reading for many years. But ... I could not stay away long and within a few years allowed myself my passion again with danielle steele and far beyond those series into lots and lots of varying types of fiction and non fiction that would most certainly be up to my dads standards and beyond .

I have  sadly had the same reaction towards music on many levels and never really opened my heart to it fully . Behaviours   and attitudes from the past that have no place in my present life but yet still hung on 

Until my dad died.

In my eulogy- heartfelt and sad and loving and very confused all mixed together - i ended with :
" it is now time to put ink into my pen and allow music into my life "

And i did .

I began writing and exploring music and doubled the amount of books  i read. I opened myself to sharing these passions with a man who i could not allow myseld to fully love in life - but could more easily
In his death . And i did .

My book habits are always pretty much the same :

I always have one novel being read and one non fiction being read 

I read for fiction what bookclubs normally read and get hold of their lists often . I love stuff
To do with families and kids , crisis and tragedy, love a good twist , love stories of ethnicity and culture and tradition . 

For non fiction it is always parenting parenting and more parenting. Lots of business book , career books , how to make alot of money in less hrs , couples and marriage books , self development and organization and time management. Relationships .

I have gotten into
Some auto bios lately and am facinated

I typically read a book a week.

At least 9 weeks of the year i read 4-5 books a week .

For this three week vacation i ordered 18 books and will get through most .

I never get library books as i hate having to take good care of them and dont like a deadline on pleasure 

I buy them all on sale at amazon but spend a fortune . ( clearly )

I never re read a book ever .

I borrow alot of books 

I keep all the good fiction and all non fiction and cant let go 

I have not joined a bookclub and not  a clue why not .
On my list ( again ! ) to do in sept 

I am sad not any of my friends are the type of reader i am as can't share this together in most cases .Most love books but only make time
For it on vacation and a few books a year . My husband is the same - a huge news and article daily reader - but for books on vacation only .

Had two good friends who read weekly like me and we used to for years lend and borrow books but not they moved to Kindle so that is all gone .

Never never ever will i move to electonic books . This is against my values ( and i am not joking )

My mom huge reader ( bigger than me) and now with mild brain injury last 3 yrs ... 5 pages at a time is a celebration every few days .

And saddest of all
Is my kids . Not readers in the least . Do it for school ( 6 english a year and 8 french) but no passion for reading. Breaks mt heart . I pile my books on table for them to see for inspiration . Nada .

I am private about my books . Don't write about them much , dont talk about rhem mich , if i am honest did not even like reading to our kids when they were little and hardly read the classics myself  unless for school .

Like clothes i can spot a book i love the minute i walk into the bookstore .
They call my name ( same
As clothes do - very intuitive)

For our annual couple vacation in turks i order all the best books so they are all in hardcover only . I literally pack a whole suitcase full of them to My husbands dismay . Yet he knows that if i don't always have a good book to read .. He is on trouble !!! ( i would talk to him all day )

I wrote one book and imagine i will write at least another two . One of them i hope to turn into my life's calling .

Books have made me smarter . A wiser person . A better person . Someone who is constantly trying to improve . Books have contributed largely to any success in have found in my career 

I feel close to my dad in my love of reading and writing and proud now  that share i  this part of him . He takes better care of me from a further place... as strange as that may sound

Books are as much part of me as most other priorities in life and a true true passion . 

I love them so .