I am having fun. We are celebrating today.
We can’t be too hard on ourselves because when you have a
kid who is hurting-trust me it’s hard to enjoy anything. But last night she
slept and this morning she smiledJ and
that was all we needed to enjoy. There is a direct correlation for us. Health
and happiness of child equals our happiness. I don’t know many parents who can
experience that differently do you?
So I wish I could post the picture of my three chickadees
with their Easter baskets they have had since they were tiny kiddies (two blue
and one pink of course ). But Chase told me if I posted it…he would murder me. Not taking
chances now that he is 3 inches taller than me.
Kids slept in until 11:15pm except Beauty up early from
the first night brace of course. Hubby prepared this awesome and very difficult
scavenger hunt for the big chocolate bunny each. Each had their own scavenger hunt
(ps I am married to a saint). Then the kids
went in basement while we hid 55 plastic eggs stuffed with candy and loonies
(20 dollars’ worth). We have a very big property at cottage full of forests and
streams and hills and snow. It was truly beautiful to watch them hunt.
I felt so grateful for nature today. For me it’s not
about Jesus it’s about the water and the sound of it, the lakes the snow melting,
the trees and the crisp smell of spring .Easter is about renewal of seasons for
me.
I renewed our cottage by cleaning up some of the chaos and
Hubby is cooking up a storm of course for Easter brunch (eggs benedict and
cheese dreams). Last night it was surprise dinner for Beauty and they made homemade
lasagna and caser salad and angel cake cupcakes. I feel blessed. And full.
Today after Easter Brunch it is the traditional Easter
walk as a family (traditional as in only happens once a year on Easter that
they would agree to all walk with us I am betting). We go make a wish with our
loonies in our stream which happens to be on someone else’s private property. They
are all rule breakers like their Mom. And don’t go getting any crazy ideas that
we calmly walk to the streams hand in hand-it is always chaos when we walk as a
family (once a year)…since they were little they push each other and call each
other names and giggle and be loud and be obnoxious wrestle and throw snow-and they still do ..Nothing
has ever changed and nothing ever will. They are brothers and sister to the
bone. We always want to get very far away from them all toward the middle to
end of our walks (sometimes even the beginning)
And then it is homework after 10 days off school and CV
writing to prep for a year or three from now –we can never plan enough for the
future. Then tonight my Mom’s place for a nice dinner together for Easter.
Plenty of hugs from my Hubby and nice moments together as
a couple who is having a hard weekend.
Our daughter may have scoliosis and it might depress us
and depress her at many times-but we have a bounty of blessings to be grateful for.
One of them is coming up this Thursday .
Hubby and I will need a box of tissue each to get though her
presentation at my company. I am not sure I will ever feel as proud as when she
will dance with that brace on.
Mostly I am grateful for
all our ordinary days. The ones especially where the five of us our
together. This family life and the ordinary days with them-are for me the best
it can get. Nothing could ever replace it-not would I ever let it.
And I continue to feel liberated at the cottage-as we
walk today or any day I go for a walk I always bundle up in layers of clothes
and shed them on trees along the way. A hat hear-a scarf here-a sweater here. Then
I collect them on the way back. And we all wear ANYTHING here. Nothing
matches-nothing looks good-everything is mismatched and silly and it has always
been in terms of clothes here. Often we go to bed in the same clothes we wake
up in. Today they all wore 10 dollar Canadian tire Billy boots and I wore my
Hunters of course (with the ugliest coziest outfit I could find)
I love that here we are ourselves with no one to impress here.
I love that we have no friends here and no one looking or caring. so different than our city life.
Tonight like last night we will say grace since a Sunday
or a holiday, we like doing-it makes us feel good. For us I don’t think it is
about God or Jesus (or maybe it is for some and others not).it is about gratitude
and taking the time to acknowledge our blessings and our hopes.
Between the kid’s likely bad manners and full mouths we
will pray for the three people this year who need it the most. Beauty for health, Hubby for continued courage
and strength and Didi for health. Once these three hopes are under control-we will
be able to enjoy the holidays fully again
Until then we watch and wait and pray to
the forests and the streams.
