This weekend was happy.
I haven't felt this good in many months. And I am not sure
why I felt this way even ... It just sort of felt like a veil of sadness came
off and that was replaced by some of the joy and peace I was beginning to feel
in January 2015 after a hell of a year in 2014 and before my whole career
changed in march 2015 .
I felt free this weekend. I pray it lasts. I need that
feeling
Maybe it had something to do with Beauty. She was at the
cottage with us alone as the boys stayed back and we focused on her all weekend.
Really increased that unconditional love and attention no matter her reaction.
Supported her through her 12-15 hrs of studying for finals
over the two days with hugs and tube rides and treats during the breaks , and
had 5 big teenage discussions with her over the weekend that made her blush but
was clear to us she was listening .
We did a night and day where she got to choose all the food
and go shopping for it ( when you study that much you need breaks !) lucky for
me she chose butter chicken , nann , homemade raita and my fave cookies . And
won ton soup! That night at dinner she talked and talked and shared and
reminisced about moments past and her feelings. It was a rare and real treat!
And after some difficult discussion with her in the day too...
That we made very democratic in nature, but still difficult in terms of many
issues that have been on our mind lately about our teenage daughter and some
fears we have of the next few years.
It was a hard but very bonding weekend. I was sorry to see
it end. Also the sun was out and Hubby and I sat on the dock and really felt
the start of summer. We took boat rides and watched “Lost” (our marathon summer
series) on the Bali bed hiding from the bugs. The three of us did our
traditional swim out to the swim dock in the cold June Lake for symbolizing the
start of summer and the wish for good weather. (please!!)
It was cold but super fun.
Sunday night we came back early from the cottage to take Chase
and his two best buddies out for a nice graduation dinner. Went to rooftop
terrace of Nelligan hotel overlooking city of Montreal . Was a real treat to
spend the evening in the great company of these awesome guys .
We missed Bear though ! Has been a few weekends now that he
is at sport event after triathlon after marathon after everything. He is never
home anymore ! And in between he studies... Man does this kid study! This
week begins the final exams. Can't wait until the night of June 22 to actually
see our Bear! ( by which time I am sure he will be with all his buddies)
Anyways was a good weekend. Was a little glimpse into what
summer will look like this summer. Three weeks at the cottage. One part of a week
alone with Hubby ... One week all the five of us... And one week beauty and her
BFF.
I am so so so ready for vacation and doing a whole lot of nothing.
Looking forward to no thoughts in my mind and reading a book a day.. Sleeping
all the time... Eating yummy stuff and watching tons of movies and to have no
to do lists and no crisis. Begging.
Seriously can't wait ... It's time
Has been such a whirlwind 2 years for us and it's time to have
a vacation where there is no crisis going on, no big things. A whole lot of
nothingless is exactly what we need right now.
I can feel it
Happy times ahead!
(And a very close friend met a guy and is very very happy
and talking lots of
Long term plans. Her happiness also makes me happy and
excited for her future)
