Weather
does matter to me right now. And my family. Three weeks
off-two already completed and out of 14 days..only 2 have been decent weather.
And guess what is predicated all this week? Rain, cold, wind. Highs of 17
degrees every day until day we leave (with rain and storms so even planning
golf is out)
Plus week we had alone without our kids where we worked
in day but had evenings free and brought boat back? One night we were able to
actually enjoy the boat and weather. The
rest? Pathetic. Expensive, Frustrating. Disappointing.
This seems to be the first year we are totally letting it
get to us. Usually we manage to have a great vacation despite weather (hence
the name of blog). This year? We have no fight left in us..No energy to go
bowling every day and play inside darts, and card games. No energy to pretend
that after we work out asses off all year to earn vacation and to pay for this
cottage that it is ok with us not to be able to enjoy the lake and the dock, and
the boat. Not ok at all to not even to be able to sit outside comfortably
without sweaters and blankets. I am done going for kayak rides and freezing my
ass off.
And I realize with my heart and soul that these are first
world problems.
But hey you know what? I have had my share of not first world problems this year too. And all
of them are still ongoing. Speaking from experience I can safely say there
is not a whole lot worse than worrying about the short and long term health of
your child….if her X-ray is bad in august and she needs major, major surgery?: Don’t
expect anything from me at all. Broken, shattered. I have run my course. So has
she. I can't believe that at least the weather would not shine down on us this
year
So yes. In theory the weather should be the least of my
concerns but for some reason right now..it is not. It is a big deal. And we are
all really pissed off about it. Feels like a huge slap in the face. For four
weeks. And yes we are bonding as a family, and yes spending time as a couple
and with the kids, and yes getting things done we never have time to do…and
blah blah blah blah blah…its all true. But we are not doing anything close to what people should be doing on a
vacation.
And while I am at the big pity party for myself why don’t
I add that actually the health of a child is more important than the health of
any animal in every circumstance, that my poor Mom fell again while she was at my cottage and
now restarted her 7 month concussion , and that no that is not appropriate to
do or say “ “ when someone has recently
stopped drinking!
And while I am at it : Watching your daughter wear a brace
in summer is heartbreaking for a parent when in summer you are meant to be free
as a child. And no it does not get easier to watch. And no….you are right..maybe
I am not myself lately. And my daughter-well she is swearing more and a little
crankier yes. And my husband is a little quieter actually yes. And yes my
son-he still does have ADD which has taken a big backseat in light of
everything else –but yes it is still there.
And why not tell the world: after 42 yrs of getting my
period every 33 days for 8 days heavy and straight now I am getting it every
second or third week. Still long and heavy. With my daughter now. Two bitchy woman in the rain and cold it
seems.
(I don’t even give a shit about cupcakes these days).
Poor poor poor little me right?
You know what?
Yes.
For once I will take my space and say poor me.
So tonight it is raining and it is cold yet again. And
tomorrow too. And the next day and the next. And yes it was sweet and cozy and
nice for a while-but I just feel like we need some fun..some luck..some
ease..some simplicity..something easy for once.
And that is what I have to say today.
And unfortunately for you? You stumbled on this pathetic
stupidly named blog. I suggest you choose a blog full of happiness and sunshine
for the next time.
