There are many things I dream of lately…
I dream of a night alone with my husband without worries.
Time to talk..to be together. How many weeks now? 10?
I dream of a simple vanilla ice cream cone in the summer
A long bubble bath or shower
A shower gel that could capture where I am at
Of someone else doing the dishes
A fireman to come and save me
Watching my daughter spinning and spinning in a new dress
I dream of the simple dinners and laughter
The long sleeps that were uninterrupted
Of my phone not having to be kept on
I dream of knowledge. Knowledge as power and decisions being
made
I dream of the next year ahead and the good things that
are bound to come our way somehow
Of all the good luck in store for us
Of getting back to my biggest worry of the day being ‘”
oh that sucked!”
I dream of being me again
Of lighter shoulders
Of not being jealous of all my friends and families lives
Of laughing and love
Of her being tucked in curled up in a ball in her cozy
pjs
Her dancing
Her dancing
Her in her little short tank tops with her tummy showing
Just simply Her.
And I dream of being free
Of us being free
Of freedom again
I miss what I had and at the same time look forward to
what I know I will have again one day.
I want it back
And yet I know I cannot go back
I can only move forward
And forward is where we will go
