It’s not every day that you are given the chance to start right
over.
I mean we all have that chance don’t we every minute and
every second of the day, if we really want….but how many of us actually do that
really?
But then sometimes life steps in and gives you a reason
to begin again. Some call it crisis, others bad luck. Other good luck and
others opportunity.
I call it Life.
And what you do with it and how you see it are entirely
up to you.
Well for today anyways I am letting joy and peace in. Un- abandoned
innocence and happiness. With no fear allowed.Just letting those new beginnings
wash all over me…like a brand new body wash flavour.
Understanding that new beginnings mean lots of endings
too.
Understanding that new beginnings have honeymoon periods.
Understanding that new beginnings are far more complicated
than they feel at this moment.
But having the faith that what I can feel today…I can also possibly
feel other days of the year too. One day at a time. Une Journee a la fois.
And making decisions in my head for today too..Things
that won’t go on list as they won’t need to. Just things I know for sure.
Have I ever really let myself know anything for sure that
I did not plan out?
Like that walking to work would be good for the soul
Or that having toast with bananas cut up in the morning
is a good thing
Or that cup of tea before bedtime could change a life
Or that an elastic band around a wrist could be almost part of the body
Or knowing now full well that I am not comfortable
reading my kids texts every few weeks (unless I would suspect an urgent issue).
It for me is not an infringement on their privacy..but on their process..and
mine. It’s just not who I am anymore. I have grown into someone different. I can't wait for our kids to meet us.
And that I love hugging
Ad that we both need a lot of tenderness right now from each
other and from the world.
For today..and probably tomorrow …my mind stops at Joy.
And Joy? even for an hour, a minute , a day........is what I need.
Thank you. Thank you. For even just this one day.
