I honestly don’t know.
Sometimes I think it must be much easier not to be very religious.If
I was a church goer..I bet in these last few months I would have stopped going.
I am trying to keep the faith. I am desperately trying to
do it. Trust the people. Trust the process Know we can handle it. Know it will turn out
all ok eventually.
But seriously?
We literally just take blow after blow it feels like. And
big ones.All to the head it seems.
It’s to the point I am not even bothering anymore to
share. It’s almost too comical. To ridiculous. Is this a bloody joke in fact?
Anyways it’s too bad on blogs you can’t say it all.At this
point does not matter as even my real life people I am shutting down on. Just too
much. Certainly too much at once.
I know I should feel really blessed balh blah blah blah.
And most the time I really do.
But right now? Nope.
Why is all of this happening? Why?
It takes a lot to get me totally down..alot. I can always
pick myself up off the floor.
Friday night and supposed to be celebrating Valentine’s
Day late…..I am still at work and I am going home to go to sleep.
Goodbye for a while probably.
