There comes that day when her being a girl is really different than her being a boy.
There comes that time when you really and truly relate to her.
Because you have been her at one point in your life.You still are her on many levels.
You were also in grade 4 and you were a girl.She brings you back to a sweet time.
She tells you with a little tiny smile on her face that she is trying not to show, that she walked with a boy to her tutoring session from school.
Not only did she walk with him on purpose but he bought her a candy at the depanneur.
And that is when the real smile spreads across her face like sunshine.
She tries to make it seem as though this happens to her every day of the week ,but in fact you know she will hold it with her forever. She goes to bed a tad early to think about it some more.
She tries to be casual, but you know it is a huge deal.
She tries not to me made fun of by her brothers, but you know that secretly she could not care less. She wants her brothers to tease her.She loves being liked by a boy. Especially that cutie-pie one.
Later that night she tells you she would wish to have a pool party at end of years and invite boys. A boy girl party she calls it. She says she wants to have really good food and music to impress the boys.You get it.
It’s all beginning all the girl stuff and it’s a whole lot of fun. So many moments ahead to share together; so many secret smiles and wishful thinking and broken hearts.
On nights like this you wish you could just pick her up in your arms and go spend a week together just the two of you at the cottage. Leave life behind and do manicures all week and eat candy in front of the TV. Maybe you should?
She is your baby girl and she is growing up into a little lady before your eyes. Part of you wants to stop time and the other part is so very excited for her and for you too.
So today I had a real taste of what life is going to be like with a daughter. What life will be with my daughter.
And when you have a girl…..a lot of life is ironically spent speaking about…boysJ
When I think of her…the word Indulge always comes to mind-it always has. I wonder at which point I will fully allow myself to fully soak in all of these delicious moments? To fully allow myself to believe I deserve them.
