In the last few weeks my family and I have received a lot
of love. We have had a few things going on too personal to describe on this
blog….but truly the love has been pouring in.
For me..for my husband and for my children. It is truly
beautiful to know we are loved in this way. All all of us and not just one of
us. A family affair really.
It’s amazing how text can make all the difference in a
day-or a chat-or a coffee or a lunch or an activity even planned for ahead that
can be looked forward too. I have some reservation around technology in the
past-but it has been my savior lately. Just someone in the day texting to see
how I am and to let me know thinking of us makes the world of a difference.
Sister Savvy has been my “How is your day today?” and
late night chats or texts chats girl often before I sleep. I love our banter
over text-it is so strong and emotional and funny and hilarious. I make myself laugh
just reading these texts and the rawness of them. Sometimes we have two or
three topics of conversation going on at once-one can be almost critical and
life threatening and another one about milk and cookies. Love it. Love that girl.
And her love for me and our family is so consistent and strong. I love that she
has me us in her prayers and love that she tricked me into prayingL (and PS I love it!)
And Soul keeper has been my get together girl and cry or laugh
or chat and give advice to megirl. Activities planned for me, for the kids, for
Hubby. Encompassing the needs of each individual and the whole family. There
and unconditionally loving me and showing me how to grow and change and be..And
fall and fail and show me that that is ok. Letting me vent about things
whatever they are and assuring me that anything and everything is ok to say
without judgment. Providing me the tough love and what I need to hear vs what I
may want to hear. Being there for many texts and late night chats too-checking
up on me.
And my Mom. My Mommy. Just being there for us and loving
us and spending time with us. Going into Jacuzzis with a colds face, massages
for each kids during the whole movie, getting our cars towed (lots of towing!) watching
out for kids, watching out for me..Cottage crazy but amazing weekend..Being
supportive and realistic. My Mama Bear.
And Childhood Wonder with sweet texts and being there for
me and our long lunch planned this week over Indian. Lots of offers for chats
that I can’t take her up on as different waking and sleeping schedules but
sweet offers for sure. Same with the Chiffons how have been there and supported
and made such a difference for us and lots of offers to chat just opposite schedule
but appreciate all the nice texts. These wonderful friends and family make all
the difference. And Caro 6 and bother and sister in law…..knowing they are
thinking of us….and means so much.
And then two friends who are my “item girls” and making
sure it all just works out. Helmets at home, dirty magazines (tee hee) words of
reassurance, lunches, signs of hope for Trent, and most of all a cheesecake that
will be made with love. That cheesecake is really symbolic for me.
And all of these people the best gift they have given me is..freedom
to express myself-and be negative and be positive. That they trust be enough to
give me tough love too-and not just treat me with white gloves. That they trust
me enough and care about me enough to want the absolute best outcome for me and my family. Their love
and trust is making all the difference at a hard time.
And
the best outcome is what I am striving for. It is my laser focus right now
And my ability to confide and explore and be honest is shocking
me. It is true “V”! and I am patient and serene (focus 2014) so far anyways. And
their love is making me feel…well like ..that we have a village…a village we
have worked so hard to create through love and devotion and getting it wrong
and getting it right…and feedback and care and giving and receiving. Our village is there. There for us and
we are there for them. We built it with
them all.
A village is good. I recommend it to everyone. Like oxygen.
I love that my kids seeing and experiencing
this village. I love them seeing Love in Action
PS-a comment on Chase totally unrelated. It’s like this
year age 16 everything we have ever taught him is seeping in. I see who he is
as a man and not a little boy.
He writes me texts like:
“Be strong Mom!
“I am so proud of you Mom!”
He said last night and again today that he does not
appreciate his new tutor as she “does easy stuff and easy stuff although easy
is not the right way. Hard stuff and pushing someone like me who wants the easy
way is what is required and what is better” OMG!!!
And then he says things about the way that people listen
to problems. And he says “they have to ADAPT to the person talking..You can’t
just listen it is useless….ADAPT to the reaction and give direction and provide
some good thoughts
I love love love this child. And I love the man he is
quickly becoming. If I didn’t know any better he would probably be my best friendJ
(Nope. Don’t worry. I have enough great friends and I
know that kids are not best friends they are your kids)
