Now we look at the past year and how I did with my words
in 2014:
Serenity: steadiness
of mind under stress; composure, calm, peacefulness
Patience: ability to accept
and tolerate delays, problems, sufferings without becoming annoyed or anxious
Above were my two words for 2014. It was such a busy
crazy unexpected year I literally forgot I even had any words.
Let’s see? How did I do? Well let’s see in both areas I
would say my mom, my husband, my co-workers, my boss and my closest BFF’s would
say I made significant improvement. Probably more on the Serenity portion than
the Patience but a definite improvement in patience too.
My kids? I bet they would say on serenity slight improvement
and in patience no movement.
All perspectives. All reality. But what do I think since
I am the one who lived this year? I would say I was steller actually. My world
was (and still is in lots of ways) topped itself upside down. It’s really
really hard to explain unless you have lived it before-like anything big that
happens to anyone for that matter. I am not sure I will ever really recover if I am quite
honest. So considering what this year unexpectedly held I actually think I was
very serene and very patient-but this was inside my heart much of the time
silently and I don’t know how much the world saw of it. For me I am still
floored that I got through this year, am still happily married, still have
excellent relationships with my kids (even better than the year before), have a
closer more authentic relationship with my mother in many ways than ever before
and am able to juggle the demands of my new role at work, take on big new
clients for my own company, wrote a book and managed to do my part of the
domestic duties at home that we used to have help with. And..be not losing my mind.
So with that personal definition of peace and serenity of mine-I would say I
scored fairly well.
With tons and tons of space for improvement. What I have realized
a lot this year is that often people can’t change innately what is inside of
them. They can change the outward behaviours in many ways but very very hard to
change people. I have many people around me-including myself, that I have tried
to change (which is dumb and also doesn’t usually work). Some I have tried to
make more passionate, some more present, some more stable, some more organized,
some more nuturing, some more visionaries and strategy. But at the end of the
day? I am going to be surrounded by friends and family who I love dearly but
are clearly not in the present moment, or not organized, or not making long
terms decisions. Just like I will never really be serene or patient-but can
try my darnest to act more in this way sometimes for the sake of the people around
me mainly
As the year 2014 is coming to an end especially in
December my patience and serenity is actually wavering a lot. I am starting to
feel my ever common restlessness again as the year closes. Interesting. Which leads
me to reflect on the space I am in for 2015 (hallulah we changed years
baby!!!) 2014 in lots of ways and my words led me to my word Flow for 2015
